Two failed shows?

Whose fault was this, who was to blame?

I blamed everyone, the Gallery, the Gallery staff, the collectors and of course the public because no body came.

The truth was the fault was mine, yes Artist, it was my fault.

No body came because no body knew me.

Obscurity is worse than no money.

No collectors came because they did not know me or my paintings, I was unknown.

If you are unknown, then you are unknown!

I had been painting for thirty years and was unknown but to a few loyal friends and collectors.

No body knew me, unknown.

I had blamed everyone but the fault was all mine.

I had two choices, I could climb back into my dark place of isolation and obscurity and blame the whole world for my failure or I could take responsibility for my own failure and change myself?

I decided after some soul searching to make some changes, I forgave myself and began to rebuild my life.

I thought I could never learn new things but you can.

The key to learning new things is, self belief, discipline, determination and a deep desire to be better tomorrow than you are to day.

If you want your life to change, you must change, its takes discipline.

If you want the next five years to be like the last five, then do nothing and change nothing.

If you want the next five years to be better, then you will need to become better.

Always the choice is always ours alone, some do, some don't?

It is quite amazing, if you think you will fail you most likely will, because the things you think about the most, mostly come true.